Hi I am just blogging cos I am ranting I know I havent been posting with pictures I am terribly sorry about that because I haven't been using the computer and my phone does not allow me to upload pictures and the reason why there is no punctuation is because I am ranting so please bear with me because iwannabeoglsofreakingbad and iamsoscaredthatigetkickedoutbecauseifailedmyfreakingrpapaper and now I feel stupid and wonder is it I really can't do math or is it I did not practice enough and no one knows how afraid and how much I'm panicking that tanyewhwee might ask to see me tomorrow and it's gone case for me I really don't want to have to see him one on one again sigh I am so worried everyone can tell me things will be fine and all will be alright but no one is me and hence no one knows my fears yes I know the fears might be uncalled for but it is 50-50 whether I get scolded by him omg Amanda why can't you just be born smart or maybe a little more hardworking sigh sometimes I wish I wad in poly studying psychology sociology hospitality and tourism but anything other than the horrifying jc syllabus you have no idea how inferior I feel and know that I can do something bout it by studying more yet being so tired everyday cos waking up at 6am everyday is a chore this feeling sucks I need to get my positive energy back and yesterday's dream totally didn't help at all I can't wait for tomorrow to pass (smoothly hopefully) and then I can be a happy girl a happy OGL and happily enjoying cny before facing reality again I'm sorry for this super long ranting post but I am so zomg freaking stressed and as I was talking to xueting and Sylvia today about whether the world would really end in 2012 I realized I was scared there is so much more I can do so much more I want to do God please help me I don't want to feel like this I am scared worried and tearing please hold my hand and tell me all will be fine.
On another note thank you boyf for always being there and so supportive, I love you.
Ok i should stop here goodnight.
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